i am a very excited burger.


because two of my favourite shows in the world wide world, ( in the mean time all-fav cause i love to watch alot of movies. ) hahaha.

GLEE AND HOW I MET YOUR MOTHER!


anyways,
i was thinking i should totally change my blog skin right. its super lame come to think of it.. like how long has it been sia since i've changed it.. nyhahaa. im going to henderson waves this coming saturday.. super excited.. not quite.. after the henderson thing im going to jia wen's place at last.. tu yg aku excited. i am gona cam-whore thr.. yipeee. and and this friday, pls pray tht i'll get to go to the f1.. i mean, im not trying to be buruk siku ar.. tetapi, i won the tickets pe.. i want to go, but i see my parents excited, i feel happy. but i want to go.. i want to let them go.. but i,d rather they go.



i need to stop pms-ing. cause i will have very bad mood swings which is very bad. i cannot stop my mood and just be awesome.. instead, i'll be this stupid girl who gets pissed off at the smallest thing.
and girl is sucha understatememt. im not gona be a teenager. one of the reasons why i would not like to celebrate my birthday is because i am totally not pcyshed about turning twenteen.

k bye
don't give up your dignity for a guy, as a guy won't be at a disadvantage. the girls will be.



i learnt it the hard way. i am not talking about my dignity-sex and stuff. but how i am being treated.

i was being used. in a way or another. hw i threw myself at him. thinking that this is not just some puppy love. thought that, "Yes. He will be the father of my babies. This is THE guy i am going to grow up with till the day all my teeth falls off." with thinking that, why would i possibly think that i shouldn't give him my all. almost all.

and true enough with whatever my dad has told me time and again, tht guy left me for another girl. Just like that, in 2 weeks after we decided to end whatever complication we had. The thing is, i felt so stupid because he wasn't even my boyfriend. And i gave him alot of things. I was used and its not only his fault completely cause i threw myself at him. how pathetic can i get.

So to me, he was the world. But to him, i was a mere stepping stone for him to get the love of his life. Do you know how heart-breaking that is?

To see him time and over again. still with her. Like i said. i was a mere stepping stone. I was just a friend. I'm not special. I'm just like any other girls he played with. Just with benefits. So, all the tears, fights, strength, patience i had was wasted on him so that he, NOT ME, could be happy finally. He didn't lose out did he?

I am not jealous that he choose me over another girl. I am just very sad, that all my efforts was gone to waste.And the thing is that, whenever i see his FB. she writes, "i love you when i was still single".

when he was single, he was with me. and he went with her after he broke all ties with me. he didn't lose out on anything at all. he used me to get her. nope. he didnt lose. he's happy. while i'm here still regretting ever spending so much time.



so, my dad always say,
"don't give up your dignity for a guy, as a guy won't be at a disadvantage. the girls will be. "
=)

i am alone right now at home.
cause my sister is working night shift.
and my parents are going to clementi to visit my grandaunt and then to geylang. i cannot follow them to Geylang as i am having very bad eye infection. so, i didn't want to spoil my eyes again because of all the smoke there is at Geylang so i offered to stay at home and help out with the house chores.

as i was washing the dishes, everyone was saying bye bye to me. and i actually said to my parents, " tkmu balik lambat2 ok?"

and i realised that i am the child nt the parents.. hahaha. this shows how much of a good mother i'll become. i'll love and cherish all of my kids. i can't wait to be a mother. =)


i seriously dunnoe why i wana be a mother so badly. i would cry sometimes thinking of how much i would like a baby. hahahaha.. its super weird right.





hhaha. wokaes. i think my cousins all macam tknk buat gleeking thing tu je.. i so sad... hahahaha. k la. bubbye

i am a very excited burger.


because two of my favourite shows in the world wide world, ( in the mean time all-fav cause i love to watch alot of movies. ) hahaha.

GLEE AND HOW I MET YOUR MOTHER!


anyways,
i was thinking i should totally change my blog skin right. its super lame come to think of it.. like how long has it been sia since i've changed it.. nyhahaa. im going to henderson waves this coming saturday.. super excited.. not quite.. after the henderson thing im going to jia wen's place at last.. tu yg aku excited. i am gona cam-whore thr.. yipeee. and and this friday, pls pray tht i'll get to go to the f1.. i mean, im not trying to be buruk siku ar.. tetapi, i won the tickets pe.. i want to go, but i see my parents excited, i feel happy. but i want to go.. i want to let them go.. but i,d rather they go.



i need to stop pms-ing. cause i will have very bad mood swings which is very bad. i cannot stop my mood and just be awesome.. instead, i'll be this stupid girl who gets pissed off at the smallest thing.
and girl is sucha understatememt. im not gona be a teenager. one of the reasons why i would not like to celebrate my birthday is because i am totally not pcyshed about turning twenteen.

k bye
don't give up your dignity for a guy, as a guy won't be at a disadvantage. the girls will be.



i learnt it the hard way. i am not talking about my dignity-sex and stuff. but how i am being treated.

i was being used. in a way or another. hw i threw myself at him. thinking that this is not just some puppy love. thought that, "Yes. He will be the father of my babies. This is THE guy i am going to grow up with till the day all my teeth falls off." with thinking that, why would i possibly think that i shouldn't give him my all. almost all.

and true enough with whatever my dad has told me time and again, tht guy left me for another girl. Just like that, in 2 weeks after we decided to end whatever complication we had. The thing is, i felt so stupid because he wasn't even my boyfriend. And i gave him alot of things. I was used and its not only his fault completely cause i threw myself at him. how pathetic can i get.

So to me, he was the world. But to him, i was a mere stepping stone for him to get the love of his life. Do you know how heart-breaking that is?

To see him time and over again. still with her. Like i said. i was a mere stepping stone. I was just a friend. I'm not special. I'm just like any other girls he played with. Just with benefits. So, all the tears, fights, strength, patience i had was wasted on him so that he, NOT ME, could be happy finally. He didn't lose out did he?

I am not jealous that he choose me over another girl. I am just very sad, that all my efforts was gone to waste.And the thing is that, whenever i see his FB. she writes, "i love you when i was still single".

when he was single, he was with me. and he went with her after he broke all ties with me. he didn't lose out on anything at all. he used me to get her. nope. he didnt lose. he's happy. while i'm here still regretting ever spending so much time.



so, my dad always say,
"don't give up your dignity for a guy, as a guy won't be at a disadvantage. the girls will be. "
=)

i am alone right now at home.
cause my sister is working night shift.
and my parents are going to clementi to visit my grandaunt and then to geylang. i cannot follow them to Geylang as i am having very bad eye infection. so, i didn't want to spoil my eyes again because of all the smoke there is at Geylang so i offered to stay at home and help out with the house chores.

as i was washing the dishes, everyone was saying bye bye to me. and i actually said to my parents, " tkmu balik lambat2 ok?"

and i realised that i am the child nt the parents.. hahaha. this shows how much of a good mother i'll become. i'll love and cherish all of my kids. i can't wait to be a mother. =)


i seriously dunnoe why i wana be a mother so badly. i would cry sometimes thinking of how much i would like a baby. hahahaha.. its super weird right.





hhaha. wokaes. i think my cousins all macam tknk buat gleeking thing tu je.. i so sad... hahahaha. k la. bubbye

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