wokaes. today is kind of a nice day.
met hadi.
but then kn, today his turn to vent his anger on me.
( usually i would be the one, ALWAYS, venting my anger on him cause i pms badly )
yeahh. so when i met up with him, he was like marah2 aku over small matters.
and i was super pissed off ar.
then he pissed off. i pissed off.
tapi kamalina.. being the normal kamalina.
mane la nak kalah.
esp against hadi.
jadi die jugak yg terpakse mengalah.
tapi during the process, hahaha.
it was funny. cause we both were like shouting at each other.
in front of telok kurau pri.
yeahhh. kite ngh jalan.
and shouting at each other.
hahaha.
k. irritating.



ouh yeahh. i got a job oredi. at LSH.
the little skool house
im the form teacher of nursery 2.
and the kids are to die for.
in both ways.
cause they're super cute and sumpah tk-nk-dngr-ape-cikgu-ckp.
its tiring having to repeat whatever i say at least 10 times in 15 minutes.
k.
hahahaha



i'm super bored. but i dont know what else to say insdie this blog. wokaes.
i miss iba. like super duper much.
seriously.
i havent been miting her nor talking to her properly.
its super irritating.
cause i wanna mit her badly.
and to think that i freaking leave two blocks away from her.
its like our schedule lain lain smcm ar.
sat and sun she working.
im working on weekdays. and wed and fri im schooling too.
how how..
i'll be super shagged reach friday night.
damn it laaa.
nehmind. i will tell her to mit me at my house on thursday.
i will see you then
=))))
aku sumpah rindu kau..





niwaes, i need to make plans.
whenever i mit hadi.
like lesson plans.
-___-
k lame.
hahaha.
yeah.
one of the days in feb
( sumpah dah siang2 dah inform eh)
i wana go town with him.
after i finish work.
hahaha.
then, i wana go zoo alsooo..
yeahhh. can't wait.
woooowwweee..
and also sentosa.
and jurong bird park.
and also cycling at ecp.


aku sumpah tk bleh depend on him alot.
walaupun die best friend aku, i gota accept it that he is going for ns.
and its worst.
far more worst cause he is not be able to talk to me at night.
and sat, sun. both days i cant mit him.
cause he got family friends and more friends that he gota spend time with.
and im just kt tepi.
and its less than a year that he's going to ns tau.
im like gonna be super duper sad.






k. aku tk nk bebual pasl nie nnt aku sedih.
hahaha.
aite. i wana go sleep since, he's still not calling me.
probably talking to some girls.
hahaha.
byeeee.







Boy I never knew I could feel they way I felt,
when I met you I could never forget you and
boy when you look my way I realize more
and more I adore your pretty eyes




k. tht guy one the extreme left is iman. k.. tkmu kekek.
this picture is when... k. i dont rmbr.. hahaha.
but i miss tok.
k byee.
i have nothing to say.
to say, to comment.
absolutely nothing.
but there's so much that i'm thinkin about right now, that it hurts my head.


i don't know what are we.
it seems so right, but at the same time wrong.
it seems that i have all the right, but at the same time i don't.
it seems nothing's out of place, but everything's so awkward.
it seems like a fantasy, but its complete reality.



whatever it is, please dont run away. i'll stay. we won't lose each other.
memories. all alone in the moonlight.
have the sound lost its memory.
it is smiling alone.

~lalalalalala


mampus.
im watching cite
" dude, where's my car"
its super duper funny.
hahaha.
i cant stand it siaaaa...
k. sumpah kekek.


and i gota finish up this essay.
and i gota finish it up now.
and i gota go out at 3.
and i gota go die and kill myself horribly.




yeaaah.
k bye/
ok. aku irritated.
computer aku sedang bergile.
jadi aku ngh geram.


wokaes.
so my blog ugly ar. and my face busuk.
but i like.
ahaha..
nice kn kn?
biar la aku ckp cantik.

wokaes.
i need to do a song.
and then im off to school.
yippeee ya yo.
tomorrow need to go marina
and saturday going to sentosa.
yeyness..
sape2 nk pegi, blang ye?
ikut je.
tkmu malu2.
k byeee.




=)))
wokaes.. maybe i'm in denial.
its bad.
ooppps
my bad.
hahahahha.
wokaes.. i should stop being lame..


anyway, you know.
my house is a lil retarded.
everytime dah 3 ke 4 pagi right, must got some commotion downstairs tau..
like, mesti nye ade once a week gitu.
tht time my family saw this group of people kena beat up.

then, got ten thousand of couples fight.
chinese, indian and malay.
they end up crying.
and shouting. and fighting.
some got a lil abusive.
and sometimes, me and my sister get a lil kepo, kite pakai binoculars..
( isn't tht wht its suppose to be used for, its not like anyone of us go sungai buloh and go bird watching )

hahhahaa.
i have a weird family.
and best friends also.
i think tht now.
tht with the life i have right now, im content if im in good relation with my parents, my sister, nurul, shiqa, hadi ( esp hadi), iba and ili.
=)))

thank you.
( k aku ngh nk naik stage amek prize)
i cant thank you all enough.
firstly i gotta thank god. my fans. ouhhh. i cant do it without you fans.. my family. my sister.. aww.. kakak. nurul shiqa... i love you guys.. hadi... ibaaa.. ouh my god iba... my soulmate. i dont know wht i'll do without you.. ili... thank you. i cant thank you guys any more than this. ( sobss and sniffs)
thank you ( hold the award close to my heart.)






cheyyy.
aku nie bebual cam real ajee/
imagination run wild.
biase la...
nie makne nye my creative juice is flowing.


ok. i better stop talking.
k bye.
aku nk tido.
while waiting for my piggy pet to call me
its hadi btw.
hahaha.
to make gay guys straight.
like literally straight.
no hanky panky with guys.
i meann.. come on.
itss such a waste that HOT HOT HOT HANDSOME GUYS are gay.

i do not have anything against gays or lesbiansss.
but just, itssssss sssuuuchhh a waste that you gotta be attracted with your own sex
when you're so effing hot and i swear if you're not gay kn, 50 girls will be lining up for you.
no kidding.



haiiiz...
damn hot handsome guys.
k daaa.//




fireinhereyes. fireinhereyes..
wokaes.
so today is friday...
yipppeee ya yooooo....

well well welll.
i'm super tired.
and then zul woke me up cause he want rkk.
hmmmm.
muke aku nie kedai mama ke ape.
hahahaha
aku tau la kau slalu nmpk aku blum lagi mandi.
shhh.diam2 ehh.




so then, yesterday went to tp cause i needed to print out something.
ili didnt send it so i took 8 with hadi back.
then kite ade another lepal session.

yerp2..
wokaes.
aku patutnye pergi rumah shahirah skrang.
tetapi aku tidak tahu mengapa aku tidak pergi.
aku seorang wanita yang pemalas.
OK SHUT UP!!!!
hahahahahha. kekekek

i want to learn how to speak in malay perfectly.
wwhat whattt/.
hhaa..
k dddaaaa...



aku nk blajar joget lepas nie.
k bye.
woooo.
ok. aku tau aku da bis bace buku tu, tapi biar la.
i really like all 4. super nice.
aku tk pernah nangis mcm gini teruk sey reading other books.
wokaes. got la.
one or two.
this one really touching.
nyehehe.

and sumpah aku dah bnyk kali ngok twilight and im watching it again.
heeee.



wokaes.
then so, i went to school.
its been such a long time i swear.
and so many fun things and retarded comments.

before going to school,
ashiekha, nurul and iba came over my house.
we were talking. then tido.
then i went to school.
hahahaha.
kekek.

yey
tomorrow going to swim at shahirah's place at 12.
coolness or what.
been such a long time.
then i have to go send some shit to raffles place.
and go back home.
ouh please pray tht hadi calls me so tht he cn teman me tomorrow.
if he cannot teman me kn, i so alone.
booohhhooohhhoooo.






wokaes.
baby kena hit his head.
wakkaka.
ok la.
bbbyeee.
wokaes.
aku nie mcm pompan slenge.
ya ya faz.
semue aku yg cacat ngn slenge.
but. in the end, im the most interesting.
dont ya tink?
hahaha.
aku bebual steping die bace die blog aku.




i swear i miss nyp.i miss zul. i miss all my classmates.i miss andy.i miss my lecture stupid theatre.i tht slalu without fail aku lmbt.
aku saje2 je masuk one hour late cause i thought start at 9 padehal 8.
i miss having so much time and playing taiti at the library.
( in poly, aku baik smcm heee )
main gambling at the canteen.
mkn potato wedges and nuggets.
sumpah aku rindu di situ.







wokaes.
i miss my tok also.
i was talking to hadi about my grandfather.
and it was super funny.
cause i was telling him how my grandfather was.
like whenever i go to his house, he will be, without fail, holding a cigg in his hand.
tk pernah2 tk.
and he swims so far at changi beach, and always pulls us randomly to go to the deep deep part of the sea with him.
i would try to learn how to swin to follow him.
but it was really hard to try to ikut die.
cause he was super fast.
hahaha.

















yeah.
and tadi was a stupid lepak session.
hahaha.
i was eating nips.
yg chocolate with peanut.
yummy.
abeh aku try campak and catch it with my mouth.
then we played a stupid game.
i opened my mouth then he tried to shoot the nip in side my mouth.
sumpah kekek.
then my turn.
and it went over his head.
k sumpah bute.
then it was his turn again.
so he asked me to open my mouth big big.
and kau tau ape die buat!!
he threw like 5 nips.
and sumpah satu pun tk masuk..
wakakaka.
" show me the money, WHAT WHATTT! "





~ you got served la~
hahaha.
k byeee





protect me, let me be. the good girl in your eyes.


i would love to be an organiser when i grow up.
i want to be a planner.


ok ok?
nehmind..
after this family pit, i would do a reunion for bedok north sec.
i'll ask hadi to help me.
yerp2.. 2 managers.
together hand in hand.
making this work.
wooooo..
hadi amcm??
nk tk?






hahaha.
niwaes, dont buy s'pore nye.
cause nnt org amek cam dirng nyee.
shah. karno.
kiwek
thanks eh.
amek je la..
tkmu malu malu lerrr.





k. suddenly im pissed beyond pissed off.
bye
wokaes.
so tadi went to facial.
and i swear it was super duper sakit.
seriously..
i felt like crying but i tahan till i got headache.
can you imagine tht.
sakit till pening kepale....
hahaha.

then patut nye gi umah ili.
do the project,.
abeh kena gi umah mummy.
so, went there straight.
with my muke merah like pantat baboon.
DAMN.
niwaes, then dah sampai sane.
i saw sabrina.
the wife of abg fairuz.
( k abg fairuz is super handsome cause he got north indian blood. and god knows how much i like DKKsss... hahaha. )
and this sabrina is from germany.
so, she's this tall, and super sexy pompan putih.
sumpah so jambu laaa...
aku tk leh angkat.
she's like some super model from victoria's secret.
haizz. cantik die aku tk bleh ang.




hahaha.
ok chill la..
k byee.









i'm different. i'm just a friend.
duwan you to be with another.
im sick and tired.
im just sick and tired.
im just so totally sick and tired.


of having to fight.
just to fight.
not only with him, but with family too.
its truly exhausting you know.
i dont like fighting, to express anger or dislike towards a desicion.

its like only two options.
you shut up about it, suck it all in and everything will be peaceful.
or shout and fight and cry den dread/sulk/throw tantrums all day long.

either way, still sucks.
you know.
when i fight with him.
i'll always cry cause after i expressed all my anger i would cry saying i dont like fighting.
its so penat to cry over the same things.
~stop being with other girls.

his side.
he just shut up. never say anything. just give sarcastic remarks tht irritates the hell out of me,
then we fight. he start to say whatever he dont like. and then i start to cry.
if its his fault, he'll apologize. vice versa.
he'll make me laugh after tht. without a doubt.





but kn, with family.
its diff.
cause it never them dissapointing me.
its always the other way around.
its not the fights, the shoutings. the silence or whatever thts tiring.
its how they look at me after tht.
its how dissapointed they look.
how it burns my heart, cause i know i could do so much better.
how i know tht i shouldnt be doing things like tht to them.
its so penat cause i never wanted to hurt them.
i would do anything to make the tears stop since such a long time ago.
but instead of helping them, im just adding the burden.
im tired. of hurting them while doing what i want.
and making them happy, but im not.


















im just Na who you want to protect in a big bubble from the big bad wolf, You.
wahahahaha.

guess what song im listening to now?
lagu nasty girl from destiny's child.
hahaha. lame ke ape.

so jus now breakfast with the girls.
nurul, shiqa and ashiekha.
ahaha shahirah had school.
so she couldnt come.

what the hell did we had ;
pancakes with whipped cream and strawberry jam
and roti prata instant with hotdog.
mind you.
it was at my house. waah.. tu pasl ade bnyk makanan.
heh


sedap sedap.
pokai la dey.
no money sia..

i got scolded in the bus.
freaking paiseh sia...!!
-___-







wokaes.
so then, im going to m'sia.
and zoo.
and night safari.
and changi beach.
and cable car.
THIS YEARR.
cause its 2009 baby...!!


tell me again why people say the obvious.
i would not leave.
damnit.

wokaes. today is kind of a nice day.
met hadi.
but then kn, today his turn to vent his anger on me.
( usually i would be the one, ALWAYS, venting my anger on him cause i pms badly )
yeahh. so when i met up with him, he was like marah2 aku over small matters.
and i was super pissed off ar.
then he pissed off. i pissed off.
tapi kamalina.. being the normal kamalina.
mane la nak kalah.
esp against hadi.
jadi die jugak yg terpakse mengalah.
tapi during the process, hahaha.
it was funny. cause we both were like shouting at each other.
in front of telok kurau pri.
yeahhh. kite ngh jalan.
and shouting at each other.
hahaha.
k. irritating.



ouh yeahh. i got a job oredi. at LSH.
the little skool house
im the form teacher of nursery 2.
and the kids are to die for.
in both ways.
cause they're super cute and sumpah tk-nk-dngr-ape-cikgu-ckp.
its tiring having to repeat whatever i say at least 10 times in 15 minutes.
k.
hahahaha



i'm super bored. but i dont know what else to say insdie this blog. wokaes.
i miss iba. like super duper much.
seriously.
i havent been miting her nor talking to her properly.
its super irritating.
cause i wanna mit her badly.
and to think that i freaking leave two blocks away from her.
its like our schedule lain lain smcm ar.
sat and sun she working.
im working on weekdays. and wed and fri im schooling too.
how how..
i'll be super shagged reach friday night.
damn it laaa.
nehmind. i will tell her to mit me at my house on thursday.
i will see you then
=))))
aku sumpah rindu kau..





niwaes, i need to make plans.
whenever i mit hadi.
like lesson plans.
-___-
k lame.
hahaha.
yeah.
one of the days in feb
( sumpah dah siang2 dah inform eh)
i wana go town with him.
after i finish work.
hahaha.
then, i wana go zoo alsooo..
yeahhh. can't wait.
woooowwweee..
and also sentosa.
and jurong bird park.
and also cycling at ecp.


aku sumpah tk bleh depend on him alot.
walaupun die best friend aku, i gota accept it that he is going for ns.
and its worst.
far more worst cause he is not be able to talk to me at night.
and sat, sun. both days i cant mit him.
cause he got family friends and more friends that he gota spend time with.
and im just kt tepi.
and its less than a year that he's going to ns tau.
im like gonna be super duper sad.






k. aku tk nk bebual pasl nie nnt aku sedih.
hahaha.
aite. i wana go sleep since, he's still not calling me.
probably talking to some girls.
hahaha.
byeeee.







Boy I never knew I could feel they way I felt,
when I met you I could never forget you and
boy when you look my way I realize more
and more I adore your pretty eyes




k. tht guy one the extreme left is iman. k.. tkmu kekek.
this picture is when... k. i dont rmbr.. hahaha.
but i miss tok.
k byee.
i have nothing to say.
to say, to comment.
absolutely nothing.
but there's so much that i'm thinkin about right now, that it hurts my head.


i don't know what are we.
it seems so right, but at the same time wrong.
it seems that i have all the right, but at the same time i don't.
it seems nothing's out of place, but everything's so awkward.
it seems like a fantasy, but its complete reality.



whatever it is, please dont run away. i'll stay. we won't lose each other.
memories. all alone in the moonlight.
have the sound lost its memory.
it is smiling alone.

~lalalalalala


mampus.
im watching cite
" dude, where's my car"
its super duper funny.
hahaha.
i cant stand it siaaaa...
k. sumpah kekek.


and i gota finish up this essay.
and i gota finish it up now.
and i gota go out at 3.
and i gota go die and kill myself horribly.




yeaaah.
k bye/
ok. aku irritated.
computer aku sedang bergile.
jadi aku ngh geram.


wokaes.
so my blog ugly ar. and my face busuk.
but i like.
ahaha..
nice kn kn?
biar la aku ckp cantik.

wokaes.
i need to do a song.
and then im off to school.
yippeee ya yo.
tomorrow need to go marina
and saturday going to sentosa.
yeyness..
sape2 nk pegi, blang ye?
ikut je.
tkmu malu2.
k byeee.




=)))
wokaes.. maybe i'm in denial.
its bad.
ooppps
my bad.
hahahahha.
wokaes.. i should stop being lame..


anyway, you know.
my house is a lil retarded.
everytime dah 3 ke 4 pagi right, must got some commotion downstairs tau..
like, mesti nye ade once a week gitu.
tht time my family saw this group of people kena beat up.

then, got ten thousand of couples fight.
chinese, indian and malay.
they end up crying.
and shouting. and fighting.
some got a lil abusive.
and sometimes, me and my sister get a lil kepo, kite pakai binoculars..
( isn't tht wht its suppose to be used for, its not like anyone of us go sungai buloh and go bird watching )

hahhahaa.
i have a weird family.
and best friends also.
i think tht now.
tht with the life i have right now, im content if im in good relation with my parents, my sister, nurul, shiqa, hadi ( esp hadi), iba and ili.
=)))

thank you.
( k aku ngh nk naik stage amek prize)
i cant thank you all enough.
firstly i gotta thank god. my fans. ouhhh. i cant do it without you fans.. my family. my sister.. aww.. kakak. nurul shiqa... i love you guys.. hadi... ibaaa.. ouh my god iba... my soulmate. i dont know wht i'll do without you.. ili... thank you. i cant thank you guys any more than this. ( sobss and sniffs)
thank you ( hold the award close to my heart.)






cheyyy.
aku nie bebual cam real ajee/
imagination run wild.
biase la...
nie makne nye my creative juice is flowing.


ok. i better stop talking.
k bye.
aku nk tido.
while waiting for my piggy pet to call me
its hadi btw.
hahaha.
to make gay guys straight.
like literally straight.
no hanky panky with guys.
i meann.. come on.
itss such a waste that HOT HOT HOT HANDSOME GUYS are gay.

i do not have anything against gays or lesbiansss.
but just, itssssss sssuuuchhh a waste that you gotta be attracted with your own sex
when you're so effing hot and i swear if you're not gay kn, 50 girls will be lining up for you.
no kidding.



haiiiz...
damn hot handsome guys.
k daaa.//




fireinhereyes. fireinhereyes..
wokaes.
so today is friday...
yipppeee ya yooooo....

well well welll.
i'm super tired.
and then zul woke me up cause he want rkk.
hmmmm.
muke aku nie kedai mama ke ape.
hahahaha
aku tau la kau slalu nmpk aku blum lagi mandi.
shhh.diam2 ehh.




so then, yesterday went to tp cause i needed to print out something.
ili didnt send it so i took 8 with hadi back.
then kite ade another lepal session.

yerp2..
wokaes.
aku patutnye pergi rumah shahirah skrang.
tetapi aku tidak tahu mengapa aku tidak pergi.
aku seorang wanita yang pemalas.
OK SHUT UP!!!!
hahahahahha. kekekek

i want to learn how to speak in malay perfectly.
wwhat whattt/.
hhaa..
k dddaaaa...



aku nk blajar joget lepas nie.
k bye.
woooo.
ok. aku tau aku da bis bace buku tu, tapi biar la.
i really like all 4. super nice.
aku tk pernah nangis mcm gini teruk sey reading other books.
wokaes. got la.
one or two.
this one really touching.
nyehehe.

and sumpah aku dah bnyk kali ngok twilight and im watching it again.
heeee.



wokaes.
then so, i went to school.
its been such a long time i swear.
and so many fun things and retarded comments.

before going to school,
ashiekha, nurul and iba came over my house.
we were talking. then tido.
then i went to school.
hahahaha.
kekek.

yey
tomorrow going to swim at shahirah's place at 12.
coolness or what.
been such a long time.
then i have to go send some shit to raffles place.
and go back home.
ouh please pray tht hadi calls me so tht he cn teman me tomorrow.
if he cannot teman me kn, i so alone.
booohhhooohhhoooo.






wokaes.
baby kena hit his head.
wakkaka.
ok la.
bbbyeee.
wokaes.
aku nie mcm pompan slenge.
ya ya faz.
semue aku yg cacat ngn slenge.
but. in the end, im the most interesting.
dont ya tink?
hahaha.
aku bebual steping die bace die blog aku.




i swear i miss nyp.i miss zul. i miss all my classmates.i miss andy.i miss my lecture stupid theatre.i tht slalu without fail aku lmbt.
aku saje2 je masuk one hour late cause i thought start at 9 padehal 8.
i miss having so much time and playing taiti at the library.
( in poly, aku baik smcm heee )
main gambling at the canteen.
mkn potato wedges and nuggets.
sumpah aku rindu di situ.







wokaes.
i miss my tok also.
i was talking to hadi about my grandfather.
and it was super funny.
cause i was telling him how my grandfather was.
like whenever i go to his house, he will be, without fail, holding a cigg in his hand.
tk pernah2 tk.
and he swims so far at changi beach, and always pulls us randomly to go to the deep deep part of the sea with him.
i would try to learn how to swin to follow him.
but it was really hard to try to ikut die.
cause he was super fast.
hahaha.

















yeah.
and tadi was a stupid lepak session.
hahaha.
i was eating nips.
yg chocolate with peanut.
yummy.
abeh aku try campak and catch it with my mouth.
then we played a stupid game.
i opened my mouth then he tried to shoot the nip in side my mouth.
sumpah kekek.
then my turn.
and it went over his head.
k sumpah bute.
then it was his turn again.
so he asked me to open my mouth big big.
and kau tau ape die buat!!
he threw like 5 nips.
and sumpah satu pun tk masuk..
wakakaka.
" show me the money, WHAT WHATTT! "





~ you got served la~
hahaha.
k byeee





protect me, let me be. the good girl in your eyes.


i would love to be an organiser when i grow up.
i want to be a planner.


ok ok?
nehmind..
after this family pit, i would do a reunion for bedok north sec.
i'll ask hadi to help me.
yerp2.. 2 managers.
together hand in hand.
making this work.
wooooo..
hadi amcm??
nk tk?






hahaha.
niwaes, dont buy s'pore nye.
cause nnt org amek cam dirng nyee.
shah. karno.
kiwek
thanks eh.
amek je la..
tkmu malu malu lerrr.





k. suddenly im pissed beyond pissed off.
bye
wokaes.
so tadi went to facial.
and i swear it was super duper sakit.
seriously..
i felt like crying but i tahan till i got headache.
can you imagine tht.
sakit till pening kepale....
hahaha.

then patut nye gi umah ili.
do the project,.
abeh kena gi umah mummy.
so, went there straight.
with my muke merah like pantat baboon.
DAMN.
niwaes, then dah sampai sane.
i saw sabrina.
the wife of abg fairuz.
( k abg fairuz is super handsome cause he got north indian blood. and god knows how much i like DKKsss... hahaha. )
and this sabrina is from germany.
so, she's this tall, and super sexy pompan putih.
sumpah so jambu laaa...
aku tk leh angkat.
she's like some super model from victoria's secret.
haizz. cantik die aku tk bleh ang.




hahaha.
ok chill la..
k byee.









i'm different. i'm just a friend.
duwan you to be with another.
im sick and tired.
im just sick and tired.
im just so totally sick and tired.


of having to fight.
just to fight.
not only with him, but with family too.
its truly exhausting you know.
i dont like fighting, to express anger or dislike towards a desicion.

its like only two options.
you shut up about it, suck it all in and everything will be peaceful.
or shout and fight and cry den dread/sulk/throw tantrums all day long.

either way, still sucks.
you know.
when i fight with him.
i'll always cry cause after i expressed all my anger i would cry saying i dont like fighting.
its so penat to cry over the same things.
~stop being with other girls.

his side.
he just shut up. never say anything. just give sarcastic remarks tht irritates the hell out of me,
then we fight. he start to say whatever he dont like. and then i start to cry.
if its his fault, he'll apologize. vice versa.
he'll make me laugh after tht. without a doubt.





but kn, with family.
its diff.
cause it never them dissapointing me.
its always the other way around.
its not the fights, the shoutings. the silence or whatever thts tiring.
its how they look at me after tht.
its how dissapointed they look.
how it burns my heart, cause i know i could do so much better.
how i know tht i shouldnt be doing things like tht to them.
its so penat cause i never wanted to hurt them.
i would do anything to make the tears stop since such a long time ago.
but instead of helping them, im just adding the burden.
im tired. of hurting them while doing what i want.
and making them happy, but im not.


















im just Na who you want to protect in a big bubble from the big bad wolf, You.
wahahahaha.

guess what song im listening to now?
lagu nasty girl from destiny's child.
hahaha. lame ke ape.

so jus now breakfast with the girls.
nurul, shiqa and ashiekha.
ahaha shahirah had school.
so she couldnt come.

what the hell did we had ;
pancakes with whipped cream and strawberry jam
and roti prata instant with hotdog.
mind you.
it was at my house. waah.. tu pasl ade bnyk makanan.
heh


sedap sedap.
pokai la dey.
no money sia..

i got scolded in the bus.
freaking paiseh sia...!!
-___-







wokaes.
so then, im going to m'sia.
and zoo.
and night safari.
and changi beach.
and cable car.
THIS YEARR.
cause its 2009 baby...!!


tell me again why people say the obvious.
i would not leave.
damnit.

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