soo long i never update
Posted on: Saturday, November 14, 2009
Posted at: 12:36 AM
ok..Posted at: 12:36 AM
lemme update this cobwebed blog.
first i wana apologize to two friends of mine,
to the first one,
im really sorry for making fun of you. i know you're pissed of at me. thts why you put down the phone. and usually after people put down at me, i would not care and just get along with life. cause im usually selfish like tht. but then, you're one of my closest friend i have since secondary school and i really am apologizing to you. i may be effing irraitating. but im really asking for you to forgive me. cause i would stop. i would stop making fun of you. its not funny anymore. i'll just zip it about it. im sorry.
to the second friend of mine;
i swear to god. i know its too late to apologize. i know both of us have fallen out of this friendship we had because of me. im really sorry tht i did not call you nor made an effort to save anything. and im really sorry that i did not even apologize to you even when you were so angry at me and start tagging me at facebook. im really sorry that i did not treasure the friendship we had. im sorry tht i did not wish you on your birthday. i was being so ego and full of myself. im really sorry. and i would just like you to forgive me.
i know i know that im super selfish that sometimes i find friends when im in their need. i know that sometimes, i would call people only when im alone and depressed and just in the need of attention. and when im ok and well, and less desperate for attention, i would push people aside and just continue with my life. just get along without even apologizing and not care.. but then, when im alone, i would just think about all the bad things that i did to all my friends. and i realise that im not tht innocent which i always picture myself as. im not that good and kind-hearted. its just the image i want people to look at me as and i realise im just as selfish and egoistic as asswipe. i feel damn ashamed of myself.
fcuk it.
k bye.
