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Posted on: Friday, September 4, 2009
Posted at: 7:01 AM
let's say things to get things off my chest.


my ex-complication ;

you know. there are so many things i want to tell you. i really hope you can come read my blog. maybe you will. maybe i will ask you to read it. anyway, you know. you changed my life the most. cause you're not only my best friend but you're more than that. i can only thank you for taking care of me and protecting me. you mean the world and i never wanted you to let me go. i always thought we would be together always, all the time. but things dont go the way you plan right.? its funny sometimes waking up after 3 years and no calls from you. nor msgs. like in the usual way.

like when i was working at ochacha. and i finish work at 6 and you would call at 445 saying that you're going out of the house and will wait for me at the usual place. but you'll watch tv or look at the mirror for another fifteen minutes and as usual you'll always always be late. haha. then we would walk around the whole of city hall and acting like its kadir's and mazlan's shopping center. and we would take like 1 hr to decide what to eat and then we will always end up eating at subway. the same things and all.

i miss talking to you on the phone before going out with you on the weekends cause you would always ask me to wear a shoe cause i always wear slippers and be selekeh. you would always say that i wear whatever i feel comfartable in. and i dont care if i look like shit. and then, we would talk until like the time we're suppose to bath and then, i would go over under your block.and wait impatiently for you. and you always come down with a smile and i will like muke mcm taik with you. haha. and then we would fight cause we dont have any plans. and you always ask me to make plans. then when i make plans to go east coast or sentosa. i will enjoy. but you dont like cause panas and later you feel sweaty and dirty. hahaa. cacat sia.

i miss fighting with you esp. cause when i fight with you, it shows how much you care. and its damn irritating that we always fight. with the smallest things. and its super merepek if i think back. and i never wanted to lose. i always wanted things my way. i always had things my way. im super sorry.


but now, im really happy. cause you're happy and you've moved on. i moved on from the whole thing. but when memories like these come overwhelming, it pushes me off track and i would have to start all over again. but im ok overall. i really hope you good luck. and wish you all the best in everything. im gona let you go now cause i think its time. i just wanted you to know how much love i have in me were actually meant for you. but i tink i deserve someone better, and i know i will get someone better. but whatever it was,

we were not meant to be, but then things just happen.

thanks for everything d. =)).