im sick and tired.
im just sick and tired.
im just so totally sick and tired.


of having to fight.
just to fight.
not only with him, but with family too.
its truly exhausting you know.
i dont like fighting, to express anger or dislike towards a desicion.

its like only two options.
you shut up about it, suck it all in and everything will be peaceful.
or shout and fight and cry den dread/sulk/throw tantrums all day long.

either way, still sucks.
you know.
when i fight with him.
i'll always cry cause after i expressed all my anger i would cry saying i dont like fighting.
its so penat to cry over the same things.
~stop being with other girls.

his side.
he just shut up. never say anything. just give sarcastic remarks tht irritates the hell out of me,
then we fight. he start to say whatever he dont like. and then i start to cry.
if its his fault, he'll apologize. vice versa.
he'll make me laugh after tht. without a doubt.





but kn, with family.
its diff.
cause it never them dissapointing me.
its always the other way around.
its not the fights, the shoutings. the silence or whatever thts tiring.
its how they look at me after tht.
its how dissapointed they look.
how it burns my heart, cause i know i could do so much better.
how i know tht i shouldnt be doing things like tht to them.
its so penat cause i never wanted to hurt them.
i would do anything to make the tears stop since such a long time ago.
but instead of helping them, im just adding the burden.
im tired. of hurting them while doing what i want.
and making them happy, but im not.


















im just Na who you want to protect in a big bubble from the big bad wolf, You.

im sick and tired.
im just sick and tired.
im just so totally sick and tired.


of having to fight.
just to fight.
not only with him, but with family too.
its truly exhausting you know.
i dont like fighting, to express anger or dislike towards a desicion.

its like only two options.
you shut up about it, suck it all in and everything will be peaceful.
or shout and fight and cry den dread/sulk/throw tantrums all day long.

either way, still sucks.
you know.
when i fight with him.
i'll always cry cause after i expressed all my anger i would cry saying i dont like fighting.
its so penat to cry over the same things.
~stop being with other girls.

his side.
he just shut up. never say anything. just give sarcastic remarks tht irritates the hell out of me,
then we fight. he start to say whatever he dont like. and then i start to cry.
if its his fault, he'll apologize. vice versa.
he'll make me laugh after tht. without a doubt.





but kn, with family.
its diff.
cause it never them dissapointing me.
its always the other way around.
its not the fights, the shoutings. the silence or whatever thts tiring.
its how they look at me after tht.
its how dissapointed they look.
how it burns my heart, cause i know i could do so much better.
how i know tht i shouldnt be doing things like tht to them.
its so penat cause i never wanted to hurt them.
i would do anything to make the tears stop since such a long time ago.
but instead of helping them, im just adding the burden.
im tired. of hurting them while doing what i want.
and making them happy, but im not.


















im just Na who you want to protect in a big bubble from the big bad wolf, You.

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