open your eyes cause baby i don't lie.....





but then again, i do lie.
all the time.
to cover paiseh.
to cover the truth.
to cover a fear.



nk katekn aku nie kaki bohong.
( which is true ar )
i lie to almost everyone.
i think.
bad bad habit.
ish ish ishh..
cobaan.
k diam ar.
kau diam ar.
diam ar.




niwaes, yesterday was the third week since tok passed away.
i'm still trying to accept the fact.
i super miss him.
i can't seem to remember how he sound like.
when was the last time i talked to him.
but i rmbr when was the last time he held my face.
but i cant rmbr how it felt like.
what i really wish for is just him calling me,
asking me how i am.
him holding me and smiling.
sometimes, when im alone,
i would think of him and just pray just for a chance.
just for me to meet him for a while only.
but then, it wont ever happen.




my another grandfather, yayi.
he had a heart attack.
and he's in the hospital now.
i wanted to hold his hand, to try to comfort him.
but then, i dont know how to. cause im not close to him.
he never hold me. smiling while asking me whether i've eaten.
when i come over to his house, i would always talk to nenek rukiah dulu.
im closer to her than all the grandparents..
niwaes yeah. when i reach the house, he would just ask me to go eat at the kitchen.
or ask me where im from.
i have formal conversations with him.
i always try. i try to make him laugh.
but yayi wont laugh.
yayi is at the hospital now.
im going to accompany my nenek lebih banyak.
yerp.




ok.
niwaes....
k i dont have anything to say anymore.
i dont know whats going on in my life.
everything's in a turbulence.
( however the spelling )
but im staying still.
otak ku mcm berpusing di dalam tornado.
tetapi aku tidak bergerak.
aku pening.

hahaha.
pls eh na. tkmu sey bebual melayu.
kau mcm cacat.
k ar.
someone, pls do call me.
and make me laugh.
i really do need it badly.
but then not at night, cause i lost all mood to talk at night.
im sorry.
=(
hahaha. lame eh.
but its true.
byyyyyeee







i don't like living under your spotlight
just because you think i might
find somebody worthy

open your eyes cause baby i don't lie.....





but then again, i do lie.
all the time.
to cover paiseh.
to cover the truth.
to cover a fear.



nk katekn aku nie kaki bohong.
( which is true ar )
i lie to almost everyone.
i think.
bad bad habit.
ish ish ishh..
cobaan.
k diam ar.
kau diam ar.
diam ar.




niwaes, yesterday was the third week since tok passed away.
i'm still trying to accept the fact.
i super miss him.
i can't seem to remember how he sound like.
when was the last time i talked to him.
but i rmbr when was the last time he held my face.
but i cant rmbr how it felt like.
what i really wish for is just him calling me,
asking me how i am.
him holding me and smiling.
sometimes, when im alone,
i would think of him and just pray just for a chance.
just for me to meet him for a while only.
but then, it wont ever happen.




my another grandfather, yayi.
he had a heart attack.
and he's in the hospital now.
i wanted to hold his hand, to try to comfort him.
but then, i dont know how to. cause im not close to him.
he never hold me. smiling while asking me whether i've eaten.
when i come over to his house, i would always talk to nenek rukiah dulu.
im closer to her than all the grandparents..
niwaes yeah. when i reach the house, he would just ask me to go eat at the kitchen.
or ask me where im from.
i have formal conversations with him.
i always try. i try to make him laugh.
but yayi wont laugh.
yayi is at the hospital now.
im going to accompany my nenek lebih banyak.
yerp.




ok.
niwaes....
k i dont have anything to say anymore.
i dont know whats going on in my life.
everything's in a turbulence.
( however the spelling )
but im staying still.
otak ku mcm berpusing di dalam tornado.
tetapi aku tidak bergerak.
aku pening.

hahaha.
pls eh na. tkmu sey bebual melayu.
kau mcm cacat.
k ar.
someone, pls do call me.
and make me laugh.
i really do need it badly.
but then not at night, cause i lost all mood to talk at night.
im sorry.
=(
hahaha. lame eh.
but its true.
byyyyyeee







i don't like living under your spotlight
just because you think i might
find somebody worthy

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